As August gets started, I find myself really looking forward to fall. I’m more of an autumn person in general- but there are a lot of good things on the horizon and I’d like for my back to stop sweating.
In the past month, I have reflected on a lot of things- changed my diet around, lost fifteen pounds, started to strengthen my non-existant core, and also started the final edit sweep for my second novel. It wasn’t an easy month for our family- like at all- but things are now evening out.
Throughout July, I went through a series of personal trials with my husband and his family. It’s the first time that I’ve had to deal with such a condensed amount of bad news in such a short span. It was one of those times where I just stopped, looked up and said “Really?” Despite who or what I believed in. It was that kind of stuff you can’t do much about. Crying doesn’t stop it, money can’t fix it. It’s life- and sometimes life is a beautiful bitch.
I had to just stop and focus on my breathing a few times. Count to ten. The feeling of being overwhelmed would pass. Everything would be okay.
This month is where I focus on positive things, remove any unneeded stress and work on myself as well as spend time with others. It can be difficult, because professionally, I have to focus and really fine tune this goddamn book. I love writing, I feel more whole when I’m working on it- but it’s not the only thing in my life. I’m reminded of all the wonderful people I have around me and I have to celebrate them because tomorrow they might not be there.
The above graphic is a photo I took on the High Line in Manhattan. It was a small art display of words hanging from strings. Sometimes I feel I need to look at the words and be reminded of the obvious. I know a lot of you feel that way as well. We get stuck or frustrated… and it seems everything is happening at once. It will pass… in the meantime, think about the positivity you could be putting out there, regardless of how you’re feeling.
Doug Richardson wrote a fantastic post about paying it forward- it really resonated with me, and has become my favorite thing he’s written… definitely brought a smile to my face.